As I sit and stare at the blank space which I am about to fill with words, I pondered about the emptiness that often fills the gap between the people we used to know. At a point in time, there was no void between us but now there seems to be a great gap in mind and heart. As much as they reminded me of the humble past from which my spirit learnt to soar, they also remind me of the reason i needed to leave.
When I looked at them, I saw the masks I used to wear....but only in a different lense... I revisited the plague of low self-esteem , but only as a man visiting the prison he used to be in. I saw people of totally different mindsets, and as much as it hurts for me to admit it, I was looking at the person I once was, and still struggle to avoid.
I prayed for the strength to empathize and the courage to make a move. I know the Lord would sustain me, but my fear remains as nothing but an expression of my unwillingness to trust completely on the Lord who calls.
But it would be unfair for me, who has experienced such unlimited love, to withold the Lord from others, be it my friends, my enemies or the people whom I was always indifferent to. Such 'indifferentism' itself goes against the Love my Lord has showered upon me.
I have received, and thus I shall give. My only prayer is that my giving be founded in humility and sanctified by the Giver, from whom all things come.....
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